So, I'm new here

[LostInThought]

I thought I might aswel take some time out to introduce myself a little. So people here know why my life is so fucked up....

So I have been through quiet alot of shit during my life and some times things just get to much for me.
I was physically and sexually abused as child, and this only stopped because my brother beat up the person who was doing it. (he didn't know this guy was doing these things to me, he just saw him upset me one day.)
I was bullied throughout the whole of senior school which really fucked with my head. Even now I get upset when people say things...even if they are only joking.
My brother got went to prison when I was 15 and the bullying only got worse. not just targeting me, but my whole family.
I have suffered from depression for almost 5years now but was only diagnoised in Oct 2007 as suffering Minor bounds of servia depression (what ever that means).
I have been in councilling since this time.
I was on anti-depressants for 15 months and have just recently come off them bcoz i felt i didnt need them any more....

To be honest I'm not to sure if it was the right decision or not... I have a month med free trile. My moods ahve gone for really high to almost suicidal.

Wish me luck....
I just don't know what else to do....

[brighteyes]

Welcome to the forum. It sounds as if you need to be back on your meds if you noticed this change since going off of them. Was your decision to stop a joint decision between you and your counselor and doctor? Are they aware you stopped them? It is common for someone to feel better and decide they no longer need their meds when it is the meds working that actually make the difference. I hope you get to feeling better soon.

[LostInThought]

Yes, the decision to come off my medication was a joint one between me, my councilor and my doctor.
I had been wanting to come off them for a while and my councilor kept saying i wasn't ready. And then after an improvement that lasted two months and a medication change he thought it was time for a break aswel.
I have an appointment next week with him so I'm going to discuss what is happening. I really dont wanna be stuck on these meds for the rest of my life :(

[Cominundone2390]

Heyy, well im kinda new here to and all though i havnt experienced the things ur talking about i know what it feels lke to havee the most fucked up life :) haha i still do, but good luck :)

[Daisychain]

Hello lost in thought,

Welcome to the forum :)

I'm sorry to hear so much has happened to you :( I hope it helped to write that down. Know that we're here for you and keep talking if it helps.

How has counselling helped you so far? :arms:

Feel free to PM me if you need to talk x

[Jenny]

Hi there and :welcome: to the forum

Im really glad that you found us and hope it helps to have this safe place to talk and be heard. Sorry youve been through so much in your life though it sounds so very difficult. I hope you are able to tell your doctor and counsellor hoz youre feeling noz that youve come off the medication - theres nothing wrong with being on medication if they help you

Take care and keep posting if it helps xx

[LostInThought]

Talkin about the issues do help alot, but other times I just wanna left alone. I'm hoping this site will help.
I have tried other sites in the past and they soon wear old. Just hoping this one is different. The atmosphere seems some one more helpful.


.... To my counciling, so far so good. It took me almost a year to tell my pysc what my true problems were, due to trust issues. Once I told him the support he could give me was a lot better.

[Jenny]

I hope this forum doesnt wear old for you, and i, glad that you were able to get the support you need from your psych - i can certainly relate to needing a while to trust people before opening up :hug:

[LostInThought]

I have had two psych over the past year,
I really liked the first one, she reminded me of my favourite teacher as a child, the one that would tell me things would be ok.
My second (my current) is a male and I think of him as a big brother. He is amazing. If it wasn't for him, i wouldn't be here...

[agrona]

Am trying to find my way around this forum (I'm very new to computers too) so I'd appreciate any tips on "navigating web sites for dummies"!!!!! I have been suffering depression for about 9 years but I only recently discovered the fact. I really want to get better so that I can have a purposeful and rewarding life. I feel that I've messed up completely in lots of ways.
And I don't want to continue messing up my children's lives. They SO deserve more. And I'm sick and tired of feeling ashamed, unworthy and small.

[Jenny]

Hi Agrona,

Welcome to the forum - I hope you like it here too. If you click on the "FAQ" at the top of the screen, on the blue bar, there are some tips there as to how to do some things on the forum. If you need any specific help or anything please let me know though and i'll do my best :)

Again, :welcome:
Jenny x