Ants
28th April 2009, 06:14 AM
Hello. I am not sure why I am here. Looking for companionship I guess. I came from the other forum. I went there originally because I was on the edge. Way out on the edge. Then I found that there were people there that were going through many of the battles I had already been through. I found that I could give them encouragement and in return, I was able to put my problems in perspective... mostly. I know that when this particular trainwreck in my life is over I'll just pick up the pieces and start over again.
"What trainwreck?" You might ask. My wife of 22 years and companion of 28 years left me. It wasn't another relationship, for that I could at least hate her. I do not know why. In my world we had a decent marriage, better than I grew up with for sure. I raised her two children as my own since they were 1 1/2 and 3. Even they don't understand what happened. I blame it on menopause... it's the only thing that allows me to make any sense of it.
My best friend is my daughters friend. She just went through a divorce recently so she has a lot of compassion for me, and she puts up with my flirting with her, for whatever reason that helps, and she is there to give me support however she can. God I don't want to start over!
Then a few weeks ago I lost my job. I drove truck. I had an accident in our parking lot. No one was hurt but in these times it was enough for them to let me go. Oh Well.
Alcohol has become my escape. I have always liked to party, but always kept it in perspective. Now with no balance in my life, I can at least depend on alcohol to be consistant.
Well, that's the current trainwreck. As I said there have been a few, well maybe more than a few. Whatever. It's just getting harder to find the motivation to carry on. Being with people who are also in crisis seems to help.
"What trainwreck?" You might ask. My wife of 22 years and companion of 28 years left me. It wasn't another relationship, for that I could at least hate her. I do not know why. In my world we had a decent marriage, better than I grew up with for sure. I raised her two children as my own since they were 1 1/2 and 3. Even they don't understand what happened. I blame it on menopause... it's the only thing that allows me to make any sense of it.
My best friend is my daughters friend. She just went through a divorce recently so she has a lot of compassion for me, and she puts up with my flirting with her, for whatever reason that helps, and she is there to give me support however she can. God I don't want to start over!
Then a few weeks ago I lost my job. I drove truck. I had an accident in our parking lot. No one was hurt but in these times it was enough for them to let me go. Oh Well.
Alcohol has become my escape. I have always liked to party, but always kept it in perspective. Now with no balance in my life, I can at least depend on alcohol to be consistant.
Well, that's the current trainwreck. As I said there have been a few, well maybe more than a few. Whatever. It's just getting harder to find the motivation to carry on. Being with people who are also in crisis seems to help.